Fall from Grace
Posted by PJoyLynn , 5.14.2010 10:52 AM
I obsess a lot, you know this, right?
When Olivia's nasty, I'll say to her: be the kid you want to be – is this the kid you want to be?
I have said this so many times to myself.
Be who you want to be. (oddly is a Bon Jovi lyric)
I'm constantly obsessing on whether I'm achieving it.
Am I really being who I want to be?
If I'm failing, I can feel that disappointment to the core.
Even when I don't quite achieve it,
Even when it's not completely in my control,
There's an inevitability of hurting people as I wind my way through life.
Not purposefully, hopefully, if I'm really good.
The Golden Rule – do unto others as you'd have done unto yourself.
(this is also repeated to Olivia over and over)
So, whatever, my point is, when I fall from grace, when I'm not perfect,
I hope that my loved ones will stand by me.
When they do, it is an amazing feeling.
When they don't, well, I don't need that feeling in addition to the disappointment I'm already feeling.
Another final thing I tell Olivia and tell myself,
Learn from it, move on, try to not do it again.
