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Posted by PJoyLynn , 5.27.2010 4:07 PM

WorkHardPlayHard

Repeating Someone Else’s Brilliant Words

Posted by iamtrixie , 5.18.2010 2:08 PM

There are two wolves that live in all of us, the positive wolf full of love and kindness and the negative wolf full of anger, spite and bitterness. So which wolf wins?

The one that you feed.

waylon

Posted by iamtrixie 1:48 PM

Good hearted
Is a very good word
Good hearted woman
That I know I am
Many other things I'm not sure of
A happy realization today

They say you eventually turn into your mother

Posted by iamtrixie 1:39 PM

I am sure there are characteristics and behavior that are just genetic, right?
I've always been self conscious of being like my mom.
I mean, growing up, who wants to be like their mom?
(except maybe you, Tracy)
So, I'm very aware of how I'm similar to her.
But I think I might have some of the aging characteristics of my father.
I completely space out and go into my head when people are talking.
A lot lately.
So much so that I have the argument in my head to stop it,
Of course still not hearing what the person is saying.

Wait – does my dad still read this blog?
I think he knows this about himself.
I don't think I'm gonna be in trouble.
Anyway, thanks for that, Roy (it's easier to blame him instead of me),
and for the rubbing my feet together habit.

mad dog

Posted by iamtrixie , 5.14.2010 7:31 PM

just found out mad dog is kosher.
in case you're wondering....
and yes i've been drinking.

Fall from Grace

Posted by PJoyLynn 10:52 AM

I obsess a lot, you know this, right?

When Olivia's nasty, I'll say to her: be the kid you want to be – is this the kid you want to be?
I have said this so many times to myself.
Be who you want to be. (oddly is a Bon Jovi lyric)

I'm constantly obsessing on whether I'm achieving it.
Am I really being who I want to be?

If I'm failing, I can feel that disappointment to the core.
Even when I don't quite achieve it,
Even when it's not completely in my control,
There's an inevitability of hurting people as I wind my way through life.
Not purposefully, hopefully, if I'm really good.

The Golden Rule – do unto others as you'd have done unto yourself.
(this is also repeated to Olivia over and over)

So, whatever, my point is, when I fall from grace, when I'm not perfect,
I hope that my loved ones will stand by me.
When they do, it is an amazing feeling.
When they don't, well, I don't need that feeling in addition to the disappointment I'm already feeling.

Another final thing I tell Olivia and tell myself,
Learn from it, move on, try to not do it again.

Mood Altering Drug?

Posted by PJoyLynn , 5.13.2010 3:45 PM

I wonder what it is about me
Where the words of a song create such connection
That I listen to them over and over and over and over
It's like the soothing motion of rocking chair
Affirming my inner thoughts, helping me to move on.

Typically these are Bon Jovi lyrics – I'll tell anyone that cares
I can sing Bon Jovi at the top of my lungs and things start looking up.
Very much connecting to Lost Highway today:

In my rearview mirror
My life is getting clearer
The sunset sighs and slowly disappears
These trinkets once were treasure
Life changes like the weather
You grow up, grow old or hit the road 'round here

Got just enough religion
And a half tank of gas come on, let's go

Q13 Fox News Reports

Posted by PJoyLynn , 5.11.2010 11:18 PM

Spring is here, and you know what that means...

Yes,
Raccoons.


Reporting the news is hard work.

think about you

Posted by iamtrixie , 5.10.2010 6:38 PM

i know i'm completely blessed to have a few, very close life long friends. i'm learning that this is very unique.

so i started analyzing it, how have they endured this long? for sure there have been times when either party has been pissed, when distance is the only thing that will fix it. but what brings it all back together? i think it's unconditional love cultivated by time.

then i look at my few, very close friendships that don't have that same element of time. and wonder if those will ever get to that unconditional phase.

the life & times of a pta mom

Posted by iamtrixie , 5.06.2010 5:43 PM

well, i volunteered for teacher appreciation week at Liv's school. go teachers, you really do rock!

three things:

1. my psyche is amazing to me, most times i'm very confident in who i am. but i tend to feel grossly inadequate as a mom for working full time, in comparison to the uber-involved stay at home's. but, hey, Liv could eat bacon if she wasn't a vegetarian.
2. the Seattle compost vs. recycling vs. garbage polite but don't tell me i'm wrong debating cracks me up. Women following behind the others and moving trash between bins.
3. i'm very naive. there were boxes for each teacher with notes from the kids inside. the pta was supposed to check them to make sure they were in the right box and that there was nothing inappropriate. i say, really? i wouldn't have even thought to censor the notes (by the way, this was another debate between the moms, should we invade the children's private sentiments?). uber-pta mom pulls out her favorite and let's me read it: "Mr. White, you can lick my booty." haha, still makes me laugh.